You are already everything you’ll ever be, in another form. An acorn may not look like an oak tree, but everything an oak tree becomes is already inside of that acorn. This is a lesson I’m learning. I’m asking myself, “when did I give up on my dreams?”. Only I can give up on my own dreams. Only you can give up on yours.
My journey is that of personal growth, of martial arts, motivation, mind, body, and spirit. This blog is a catalog of that. I have always given up at the breaking point. That’s when things get hard. Difficulty scared me. I play the act of a champion, but I am a facade. I refuse to wear the mask of a champion any longer and instead will become the champion myself. I’m not trying to become the champion of some tournament or competition, of some land, king, or god, but of myself and only myself, for mastery of the self is where true strength lays. I will use my strengths to get me there and my weaknesses to humble me. I will change. I will grow.
In that, I am changing my life. No longer will I work meager hours, just enough to get by. No longer will I sit in my own filth, lacking all routine and growing my gut because I haven’t had the guts to look at myself with an honest eye. I have lacked in all aspects of self. I will put down the video games and grow myself instead of my k/d. I’ve fallen a long way from the 18 year old that I was 11 years ago, training in martial arts daily, at my peak physical condition.
Today, I am 29 years old and here are my measurements:
Today I begin training in martial arts again. Today I began my new routine. Today I begin taking responsibility for myself.
Everything you’ve ever wanted is on the other side of fear. — George Addair